I feel so much love inside, it`s unbelievable. I still feel very insecure sometimes, especially if there`s a lot of strangers, but as time goes by I become calmer and more confident.
Think positive. Reality is a creation of my mind.
I want to go to the temple after work tomorrow, I feel like I need it.

I talked with mum, told her everything about my life. She was very happy, just as I was – as I am – too.
Our secrets make us sick. Not anymore.

D A Hm
Есть город на Неве, я там ещё не разу не был.
A Em Hm
Есть город на Неве, я там бываю во сне,
G D
Санкт-Петербург, Петроград, Ленинград,
Em A Hm
Разводные мосты, живые каменные львы.
G
Зимним светом полярной звезды,
D
Отражение клада со дна Невы,
Em A G
Звездный парад, мелодии белых ночей.

Припев:
D A Em Hm
Сказка во всех дней, город на Неве.
D A Em Hm
Сказка во сне, город на Неве.

Есть город на Неве, ему от роду тристо лет
Есть город на Неве, такого нет на всей земле,
Санкт-Петербург, Петроград, Ленинград,
Город-герой во славу царей и вождей,
Зимним светом полярной звезды,
Отражение клада со дна Невы,
Звездный парад, мелодии белых ночей.

Припев.

Есть город на Неве, я там ещё не разу не был,
Есть город на Неве, я там бываю во сне.

Horse: stamina, mobility

The horse shows up in almost every mythological writing, folklore, and reality. There is the mighty winged Pegasus, the eight-legged horse of the Norse god Odin, the stallions of the Hindu sun god, the stallions of Apollo, and so on. Many legends speak of the horse as being clairvoyant and able to perceive humans with magical powers. No single animal has given man the physical freedom of movement as the horse. If you are drawn to Horse, you feel a power in your spirit that is sometimes difficult to control. Horse is a symbol of loyalty and devotion, of unquestioning love and faith in his master. He says that you love to travel, and have more than a touch of gypsy in your soul. Horse is also your warrior spirit - the brave fighter who brings you safety in your journeys, both physical and metaphysical. Horse's medicine includes power, stamina, endurance, faithfulness, freedom to run free, control of the environment, awareness of power achieved with true cooperation, interspecies communication, expanding one's own potential abilities, friendship and cooperation, travel, astral travel, guardian of travelers, warns of possible danger, guide to overcoming obstacles.

Horse -Represents freedom, power, stamina, speed, transportation and communication. A black horse with a white marking on its forehead is lucky. The horse will teach you to communicate with other realms as well as this one. It is the message carrier. The horse symbolizes freedom and the power that comes with being free. It is known for strength, the need for freedom, and independence. When personal relationships become too confining the horse will buck.

Madonna means forgiveness.
Now you can proceed to the next level.

Hare Krishna Hare Krishna
Krishna Krishna Hare Hare
Hare Rama Hare Rama
Rama Rama Hare Hare

Hummingbird: messenger, timelessness

Hummingbird - the tiniest of all birds - brings special messages for us. It is the only creature that can stop dead while traveling at full speed. It can hover, or can go forward, backward, up or down. It lives on nectar and searches for the sweetness of life. Its long tongue lets it bypass the often tough and bitter outer layer to find the hidden treasures underneath. Hummingbird is loved by the flowers and plants, for as it sucks the nectar from the flower, the plant reproduces and more of its kind are created. In many traditions, Hummingbird feathers have been prized for their almost magical qualities. It is said that Hummingbird brings love as no other medicine can, and its presence brings joy to the observer.

A Totem can also be associated with an individual. It can be a persons guardian spirit. Those who believe in Totems, believe that a Hummingbird as an Animal Totem:

Has the Ability to heal by using light as a laser from it's mouth
Has Endurance for long journeys
Has the Ability to fly into small places to heal
Brings Joy
Brings Happiness
And brings Love

One of the widespread beliefs is that hummingbirds, in some way, are messengers between worlds. As such they help medicine people keep nature and spirit in balance. The Cochti have a story about ancient people who lost faith in the Great Mother. In anger, she deprived them of rain for four years. The people noticed that the only creature who thrived during this drought was Hummingbird. When they studies his habits, the shamans learned that Hummingbird had a secret passageway to the underworld. Periodically, he went there to gather honey. Further study revealed that this doorway was open to Hummingbird alone because he had never lost faith in the Great Mother. This information inspired the people to regain faith. After that the Great Mother took care of them.

If you have Hummingbird medicine, you adapt easily to whatever situation you may find yourself in, and make the most of your new circumstances. You don't waste time looking back and wishing for "what was" for you are concerned with making the most of "what is". Also, you could never become addicted to any artificial stimulants, for you find joy in your own heart. You take great pleasure in spreading joy and love and beauty to all around you, and have the gift of taking that inner joy into new and different surroundings. You have a talent for finding the good in people, and are not put off by a gruff or abrupt exterior, for you know that, if you can only get beyond that tough outside layer, you'll find goodness and beauty inside. You may have a gift for working with flowers, maybe growing them to share with others, or using flower essences for healing. Aroma therapy may be your calling. You have high energy and a spirit that must be free. To restrict that wonderful, free, loving energy is to suffer great depressions and feelings of uselessness. Hummingbird must fly free in search of beauty, spreading joy and love to all it touches.

Exodus 31:3-5


And I have filled him with the Spirit of God, with skill, ability and knowledge in all kinds of crafts- to make artistic designs for work in gold, silver and bronze,
to cut and set stones, to work in wood, and to engage in all kinds of craftsmanship.

Today I learned how to draw without lanes. I cried on my way home - it was amazingly liberating experience. It`s like I had a very exiting book for a long long time - but I couldn`t really enjoy it - I simply didn`t know how to read. Today Roger - my teacher - taught me how.

All the leaves are brown
And the sky is grey
I've been for a walk
On a winter's day
I'd be safe and warm
If I was in L.A.
California dreamin'
On such a winter's day

Stopped into a church
I passed along the way
Well I got down on my knees
And I pretend to pray
You know the preacher likes the cold
He knows I'm gonna stay
California dreamin'
On such a winter's day

All the leaves are brown
And the sky is grey
I've been for a walk
On a winter's day
If I didn't tell her
I could leave today
California dreamin'
On such a winter's day
On such a winter's day
On such a winter's day

"Let your boat of life be light, packed with only what you need - a homely home and simple pleasures, one or two friends, worth the name, someone to love and someone to love you, a cat, a dog, and a pipe or two, enough to eat and enough to wear, and a little more than enough to drink; for thirst is a dangerous thing." from Three Men in a Boat (to Say nothing of the Dog), Jerome K. Jerome